Cesspool 'o Stress

Thank goodness this day is almost over. Thank goodness I haven't taken anything out on anyone besides people who could handle it--Bummie and husband.

"F*ck you, kitty, you're gonna spend the night
F*ck you, kitty, you're gonna spend the night
F*ck you, kitty, you're gonna spend the night
OUTSIDE!!!!"

(Updating my iPod songs for tomorrow morning's workout.) :)

Also, got to catch up with one of my bridesmaids, S, today. She's good and happy, just tired. I hope all works out with her and her man. :)

Depression vs. Stress--What I learned from my EAP

I learned a lot from using my EAP tonight. I learned that all of my crying is more to do with STRESS than it is with DEPRESSION. This is good news, as I was afraid I was in need of medication or something.

How do you know you are stressed? My symptoms include:
-hunched shoulders
-neck, back pain
-lower energy
-trying to finish other people's sentences
-the urge or ability to cry often
-inability to focus
-taking on extra work
-working early, late hours

The good news is that I can change my life--the bad news is that I have to sit down and chat with my boss about it. I have fears of being looked as like I am a failure or that I'm a pansy. I also need to recognize that peoples' lives changing around me is a good thing--but that my want for changing is more just to avoid the stressors that I face. I need to deal with my current stressors in order to become more successful at what I do, not run away or add to them.

What is also helpful is that Mr.Catman has agreed that he has seen the symptoms too.

Also--getting the new range tomorrow evening. I'm hoping to see it all set up by the time I get home...happy, happy, joy, joy.

Whine and Wine

So, I'm back from AZ and have been trying to figure out what my major malfunction is. Physically, I have sinus headaches. But I am crying for no apparent reason. Everything is making me sad. And no, I'm not pregnant.

My husband, who graciously agreed to stay home with my broken self today and listen to my sobbing and talking, has diagnosed what ails me: work. He pointed out how I am doing two people's jobs right now and how it's wearing me out. My freetime is spent thinking over things at work. My dreams are work-related. I have stress in my neck, shoulders and back.

(The muscle stress could be from raking leaves this weekend. We got the yard done in about 4 hours! Good job, honey.)

Anyways, I need a vacation and badly. And I need to stop doing two people's jobs.

Thank you for letting me rant. I had a glass of wine as 'dessert'. It was delicious. I bought the mini bottles of riesling, so I can enjoy one glass at a time.